The unforgiveable

Is there a sin unforgivable? I used think there was, to me there are sins and the are SINS. In my eyes there where the typical sins that everyone and these are the sins that everyone commits. Most of us lie at some point in our life. Most of us want something someone else has. Most of us use the Lord’s name in vain, even if just an accident. And even with adultery, I always believed there is a different between 2 people in love taking that step. And then there is cheating. To me there was sinning and there was hurting others…… Boy did I have that WRONG. I have found myself in position where the Lord has mended many different things in my life and one as I saw as unforgivable. A friend showed me a Youtube video by the Youtuber Prince Ea called “She said I am gonna kill you.” To sum up what this video is about Prince Ea tells a story about a young man who killed another young man. At the trial the murdered boy’s mother says “I’m Gonna Kill.” After awhile the boy’s mother visits her son’s killer in prison and she gets to know him a little more. After that she continues to visit him and even send him things. When he gets out of prison the boys mother helps him find a job and even allows him to stay at her house. After a few months the woman explains that what she meant by killing him, was that she was going to make the little boy die and turn him into a man. So she also adopts him as her sun, even though he murdered her son. See the reality of it he murdered the poor boy because he didn’t know any better. He had no guidance or family to love him so he got into a gang. That’s the thing is sin is a sin and no sin is unforgivable in God’s eyes. Sometimes we are given the apparently to be the guidance or bible someone else may ever have. Love can do wonders for a person and showing others the same love and forgiveness that we where shown by the Lord can truly change a person. It can truly change us well. Remember the Lord is not only for you not against you.

If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land. 2 Chronicles 7:14

The Nerds of Darkness

You have been doomed ever since you lost the ability to love.

Through out my childhood and teen years I struggled really hard living some of things I like. I was made to believe that living even something by C.W Lewis and J R R Tolken was against God. I was to scared to even read Harry Potter because I was convinced that the Devil would pop of the book and possess me. Well see until I was about 17 Christianity wasn’t the only religion I was raised around. Although my mom highly disagrees know she used to be a Pagan. So I was l also raised around May Pales, crystals, circles and magic spells…Although I learned quickly what was really behind all this stuff. In fact although I love my fantasy and Sci Fi the real reason I am so picking about some things, is because I had a very traumatizing experience. But when I started going through confirmation class my Pastor had tried everything to get me to stop likely all these Fantasy stories. When I was 15 I rebled against the church and started studying Wicca. I even practiced witch craft and did tarot cards. A couple years later though I had friends get me into another church that showed me the light if you will. Flash forward to now, I and some friends who are all Christian Nerds like myself came across a movie that basically makes it look evil and bad to like this stuff. At the end of the movie they even burn J R R Tolken and C.W Lewis books…. So I sat here thinking again with this stuff but honestly thought maybe God is telling me something. I decided to pray and ask God what was right. Well than I came across another movie about that is about finding out what God’s love really looks like. Towards the middle of the movie the group of film makes goes to a Occult and Witch craft festival, expecting God just show up and fight against all the evil. But that’s not what happens, after trying to provoke God to show up. He realized that God doesn’t want to fight, God wants to love. People have a habit of demonizing people and making people who are just different evil. God loves us all and wants us all to come to him. Even when I rebled against the church in my heart I believed in Jesus and I knew he was the only way to entral life. These authors yes even the author of Harry Potter who is a Christian kept me believing in the Lord. Because the Lord was the center of all their books and movies. I definitely believe in being careful in what we get involved, trust me I’ve seen first hand the Devil is behind some of these things. But believe it or not those who are involved in the Occult are also loved by God and things like Lord of the Rings can get them away from the Devil’s clutches. I understand not everyone is comfortable with fantasy and Sci-Fi and hey that’s fine, I will never tell anyone to do something that God doesn’t want to them to do. But I am proof God is everywhere and God can use anything to bring people closer to him. We may know people that might do something that we know is not Christian like but the imparent thing is that God’s love can defeat the devil. My mother was a Pagan and now be is a Christian because she show God’s love in my life. Instead of judging her and demonizing her, I loved her. I also made sure he know many of the things she likes were created by Christians. So remember the Lord is for you not against you.

“But you must always remember that the only thing necessary for evil to triumph is for good men to do nothing.”

Wherefore Art Thou

O Romeo, Romeo! Wherefore art thou Romeo? Deny thy father and refuse thy name. Or, if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love, And I’ll no longer be a Capulet.”


When I was a kid my grandfather took me to the Theater for the first time. There sat watching Phantom Of the Opera and  I just feel in love. The acting, the singing, costumes, and the over all awesomeness that comes with the theater. I instantly feel in love the theater and the stage. I dreamed to be on that stage preforming the same acts they the actors were that night. Than in the 9th grade I realize my dream could actually come true. We started studying Shakespeare and everyone was given parts to preform for each character. That first day I was Juliet’s nurse and right before we got to the ball where Romeo and Juliet meet class ended for the day. The next day the girl who was given Juliet’s part was sick and I offered to play Juliet. After that day I was told I was playing Juliet from now on. Than after we finished Romeo and Juliet we read Othello. The teacher says to me “Robin you are play the part of Desdemona.” A role that has attracted notable actresses through centuries, well so says Wikipedia. After we finished Othello my 9th grade English teacher had me stay after class and told me I had a natural talent for acting.She encouraged me to join the drama deportment the the high school. However because I had an IEP my IEP teacher told me I couldn’t handle it. He told me without the medication to help me focus, I’d struggle academically…. That crushed me and what not fulfilling my dream made me struggle academically more than anything. Before I could even think about pro-suing this dream in college I was mom. Than I decided to study something more practical like nursing before I got married. All these years I regretted never fulfilling my dream and felt like I failed myself. Than all of sudden a friend of mine and I come up with some ideas and boom, I am doing the very thing I always wanted to do. See we all have God given talents that we are supposed to help others come to the Lord. But is up to us to open our eyes and use those talents. Its also up to us to make sure we are using those talents the way The Lord wants us too. I am proof no matter how old you are, God can stuff make possible the dreams he placed in your art. So I asked you, What is your dream? What talents did God give you? Are you using your talents the way God intended? Trust me you have talents in you and one day you will be living your dream. All you have to do is believe in yourself and trust in the Lord.

 Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. 1 Peter 4:10

Yoke of His Peace.

There is a book called The Christmas Box which in a nut shell is about a mother mourning the loss of her child. This book has inspired statues called The Angel of Hope. This statue symbolizes the lost of a child and there are many memorial gardens that center around this statue. We actually have a memorial garden with the Angel of Hope in the center around here were we live. My husband and I sometimes go there to mourn the baby we lost through a miscarriage. Recently my oldest daughter cardiologist informed us their her pulmonary artery is narrowing. Since it is narrowing she will have to have a heart catheter. Now the catheter part is not that scary but her pulmonary artery narrowing is. When she was a baby her pulmonary artery was a huge concern and now I am living through this again. Only this time I know what its like to lose a child.I get these daily devotionals in my email each day talking about different things. Today’s devotional gave was about writing down your worries. We all have worries in our daily lives and they can become extremely stressful. We worry about our bills, our children, our spouses, our health, the health of loved ones and so on. The Lord wants us to give him our worried and our burdens. But sometimes that can be hard because our lives can very crazy. So today’s devotional gave the idea to write down your worries, pray about them and then erase them after you’ve prayed for them. Now this maybe something you have to repeat daily but to erase what you drown symbolizes giving it to the Lord. How refusing does it feel after we pray about our worries knowing that something higher then us, higher then anything is in control. Now sometimes its not so easy to just erase what you pray about, sometimes we have to pray for the same things over and over. A while ago my daughter started her own prayer journal. I thought I’d do the same thing. Sometimes life hits us hard and we can’t just potent we are happy with God’s plans, But we can take our worries to him and we can trust no matter what he is walking with this. Christ is for you not against you, even when it feels he isn’t.

Even though I walk through the darkest valley,I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.-Psalm 23:4


The never needing heart ache.

Not too long ago I vlogged about my oldest heart condition and how she become a miracle. At her last yearly cardiologist check up her doctor discovered her Pulmonary Artery is narrowing and she is going to need a heart catheterization procedure. During this procedure they going to put a stent in to help her blood flow better. Now I know this procedure is easy, well easier than anything else she has done. But the fact that her pulmonary artery is narrowing is very scary. I decided that I could either set here and worry myself sick or share this everyone. Storms are going to come into our lives and they can be very scary. Even more so for someone like me who not only lost one baby but also has a child with health issues. I’m not sharing this to be to personal or sharing this to get off my chest. Yes ok truth is a part me is not angry but upset. I will not lie after I had my miscarriage I’m upset as to why God would allow this heart ache again. But the thing is when we have these moments in your lives we need to turn to him. It ok to admit you are worried, scared, or even angry. These emotions don’t make you less of a Christian, even Jesus had those moments. So I decided to turn all this around and share it with you all so you can know that not only are these emotions but give them to the Lord. You are not alone these painful moments in life not only is The Lord by your side but he also gives you people to cling to and help you through. So I hope this inspires you to know when you have storms in your life you are not alone and give your worry or anger to the Lord. Christ is for you not against you.

Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved, for you are my praise.-Jeremiah 17:14

The Ultimate Superhero

I don’t know what it is about superheroes and vigilantes. It very could quite possibly come with the name lol. I might as well live up to the title of Robin right? Something about knowing someone will come to your rescue or saving others I just love. In fact if I had billions of dollars like Bruce Wayne I’d probably have my own version of some short Batman,Robin hood, Mother Teresa mix.I’d run around saving people from bad guys, fighting against the corrupt leaders and taking of people who need. My Batcave or Bird’s Nest I should say would be something like huge Church/shelter where I’d preach the lord and help those in need. But in the basement I’d hide all my high tech stuff to fight crime.But anyway I love knowing that we can be saved as all as save others. Truth be told this is what got me to believe in Jesus. This is why I was drown to the Christianity. Because Jesus did just that, Jesus swooped in and saved my life from the bad guys. I love listening to the stories of Jesus no matter stage of life he is in. I was drawn in by his love, by his compassion, by his super powers and how he used them to fight against the Devil. I was drawn in by how he suffered and died for all of us and then rose from the dead. On thing all these normal super hero stories have is the enemy is never really defeated. Yet Jesus defeated death, he defeated the Devil. Our biggest enemy, the ultimate villain. Jesus threw the super hero cape on went further on than any hero ever could. Jesus is the the Ultimate Super Hero, let us make sure we let him save people. Christ is for you not against you.

“And there is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved.”-Acts 4:12

You’re a rock star!

“Christ is for you not against you.” I say that at the end of all my vlogs/blogs why? Because there was a time for I thought my self worth and love was depending upon my looks and my body. Although I was never the promiscuous type, I was however a huge flirt. I’d wear clothes that draw attention to my looks and 10 lbs of make up.  Believe it or not one day that got me into trouble. I grew up in the Church and yeah I’ve always believed Jesus is the son of God but I never truly thought he loved me. I had been through so much in my life I honestly thought I was God’s laughing stock. Then my stories started giving hope to others. I shared a pro life meme and was asked to give my testimony to PJNET. The next day I got told “I am a rock star. People loved my story.” Know I get messaged from people every day telling me they love my vlogs and my tweets. I actually had the honor of having veterans and active military people message me telling me to keep it up. So I realized all my horrible experinces can give hope to others. The Lord can use our life stories to inspire others. That is the Lord loving him I didn’t want to see it. I have now decided to lend a fellow friend a helping hand with their vlogs. I than hear another friend say, “will I’ll be your down fall”…. All I could think this morning was what it felt like to be like that. To be so lost you can’t stand to see others happy. Than someone reach out to me and showed me I am loved by a God. Who loved me so much he gave his only son for me. If you are in need of in your life at all, I encourage you to know you are not alone in your struggles. In God’s eyes you’re a rock star. In God’s eyes you’re valued more than you could ever know.Christ died for me and he died you. All we need to do is just accept him. Christ is for you not against you

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”-John 3:16